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September 19, 2011

counting down the days

Two more sleeps as they say. Today should have been a fun day - International Talk Like A Pirate Day is one of my favorites, yet, even in a scull and cross bone tie, a vest and a tricorne - yes, i've spend most of my work day wearing a pirate hat (I know it's 'talk' like a pirate not 'dress' like a pirate but still...) I should be FUN.

Alas, I've been down all day. Not really sure why, just the emotional roller coaster I've been on. Can't focus on anything, easily distracted. Looking forward to getting on that plane Wednesday.

Hopefully a good workout tonight (spin class) will clear my head.

Posted by yankinoz at 6:02 PM | Comments (0)

September 15, 2011

starting to get excited now

Less than a week to go and I'm finally starting to look forward to my trip. It won't be a full vacation (I'm bringing a rather sizable chuck of work with me) but at least I will be with my family.

but first - tis th weekend t b dressin all pirate like!

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September 13, 2011

reality setting in

A few of you will know this but most of you do not. My father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer earlier this year. That, well pretty much just that, is the bad news. There is a heap of good news. He was able to get into an outstanding treatment center, near my sister in Seattle - he is with family. His medical team is all very positive that his case is treatable and curable. It it pretty well contained to the esophagus (a little bit more but not that much.) He got through chemo and radiation and is currently recovering from that - building up strength in preparation for an esophagectomy (his esophagus will be removed and replaced with a tube made from his stomach.) The surgeon who will perform the procedure lectures on it! He is a leading surgeon in his field. Yes there is heaps of good news.

Up until a few weeks ago this was all something happening, almost theoretically, some 7700 miles away. That all changed when his surgery was first scheduled. Some three weeks ago I booked flights to be with my family before and after the surgery. Suddenly. the whole thing became reality to me. I found myself quite depressed and anxious to get home. Then - last week 4 days before my scheduled departure we got news that Dad's surgery has been postponed (so he can get stronger) and I've in turn, postponed my trip. Then I was not so depressed any more... I had a good week, nice weekend, good friend, good climbing.

Now today, a little over a week before I head home, the emotional roller-coaster has me at the bottom again. Per the original schedule I should be, right now, on a Qantas A380 bound for LAX. Instead, I had the worst ever climbing gym session in ages - no focus, no energy. Even the beer sitting next to me now doesn't taste good. (James Squire Nine Tales Amber - usually a favorite.)

Long time reader will know that my father comes up in my blog and facebook posts rather often. The old "25 random things about me" meme of a few years ago was largely populated with references to Dad. I'll see him soon.

And I fully intend to keep blogging about this. It hasn't been easy to start but now that I broke the ice, it should come easily. It might be raw, it will be personal.

Posted by yankinoz at 9:19 PM | Comments (3)

September 7, 2011

now 3.38

that was easier

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September 6, 2011

should rename this blog

I should rename this blog the September/October blog... I'm traveling again soon but this time for much less happy reasons then last year. This post is mostly to see if my blog is still working... how it updates the Facebook. More coming soon.

Oh, I really should upgrade this blog too. It might go up and down and change around but don't worry, she's not going anywhere.

PS - I think comments are on again.

(edit - comments not working... there's a to do item)

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